LESSON 1:  I would just like to rule out any nutrition, adjustment, or a possible yeast problem.  I have been indulging in sugar a bit occasionally when it is offered to me.  I am in the place right now where I am balancing how much I can really have before becoming a problem for me.  It can be a slippery slope.  I want to be one of those people where I can have a bite of something and it isn’t a problem for me.  I wanted to check in physically to see where I am because I do not want to go down that road again and I can feel that something is different.

LESSON 1:  Silence

Dr J:  You’re about 90% clear. So the last time I wrote it down you were at 95- 96%.  So we’re falling a little bit.  So I will tell you we’ll work on it, look at it today and make sure there’s nothing we need to do.  It may be as simple as taking a little bit of this nutrition every time you eat something sweet.  It will just counteract it for you so you don’t have any physical repercussions from doing it.  I’m not going to kid you, I have something every once in a while.  It’s no big deal.  But because you have come from such a strong history of it, and you know how much better you feel mentally,  emotionally, physically, and spiritually since you’ve been away from it, you’re fresh to this feeling of, “You know, for a long time  I thought I was really freakin’ nuts.  And when you got me off of sugar and got this yeast out of me, I realized that I wasn’t.  So I’m a little bit shell shocked about going back..”

LESSON 1:  And I don’t want to go down that road.

Dr. J:  Right, right.  Ok let’s check you out. 

LESSON 1:  Silence

Yea, and you know, I’m going to write that down as a note even though you have that on your tape.  Your inner voice is just beautiful.  What it told me is, “It’s so hard to believe I can just be me.”  It’s so hard for me to get my head around the fact that you’ve been teaching me and I’ve been healing, but its ok for me to just be me.   It’s ok for me to say no.  It’s ok for me to say no to sugar, it’s ok for me to say no to letting my identity being my work, it’s ok for me to say no when someone asks me to get involved in a project and I know it’s not really in my space of balance.  It’s ok for me to really just be me and say no.  And, it’s true isn’t it?

LESSON 1:  It’s true.

Dr. J:  The world constantly wants to pull you in all of these different directions and as much as I would like to say that’s going to be gone for you immediately, it’s getting much better.  It takes time to desensitize yourself to those billions of reactions which probably in you are now millions or thousands which used to instinctively almost reflexively …if someone did this (hits reflexes)….you were doing this… so at least you’re able to go, “Whoa, whoa,  whoa, whoa.”   At least when you are doing something, when you are eating something, when you are identifying yourself with something, at least you’re bringing it to a much higher state of consciousness, right?

LESSON 1:  Right.

Dr. J:  So you do know you are doing it. 

LESSON 1:  Correct.

Dr J:  It doesn’t always make it feel good, does it? 

LESSON 1:  No

Dr. J:  No, but at least you know what the hell you’re doing.  So there’s some type of conscious choice involved even it may be some unconscious motivation.  You’re at least watching yourself do it.  So, that’s the beginning of the end of all addictive patterns- consciousness.

LESSON 1:  Silence

Dr. J:  I get into your pancreas which is where the sugar issue is now.  I know we’ve monitored the bowel for candidiasis, but the issue is now in the pancreas.  What you’re struggling with in this part of your beingness is, “I really just don’t know who I am.  I just want to know who I am.”  And you look at me and you say, “I look at you and you’re very confident.  You have confidence; you know who you are.”   And I have to correct you on that.  The reason that it appears that way is because I’m confident I have no idea who I am.   I have no idea who I am.  I am just very confident in who I am not.  I have no idea who I am.  The more and more I am able to look at situations and go, “I’m not that”.   And then I have to let go of that part of me that isn’t that person anymore.  Some of those are very humiliating to deal with, even for me.  Some of those are very humbling to admit who you’re not.   Because to admit who you’re not you have to admit that you once were.  I had to admit just this morning as I went through an emotional release yesterday that I am a man who does not raise his voice at his wife anymore.  I had to experience it one more time to finally go, “I am just not that”.  I don’t know who I am, but I know I’m not that.   Because I don’t resonate with that in any way, shape or form anymore.   So, whatever facilitated patterns were drawing me in that direction, I was able to finally say I am out.  How did I finish that?  I looked at my wife, told her I loved her and I apologized for anytime I had ever done it.  And I said that I’m just doing my best not to be that person anymore.   My wife, she doesn’t think I’m that bad at all anyway, right?   She said, “What are you apologizing for?”  I said, “I’m apologizing for me.”  So that’s the wonderful thing about being interactive, ok?   So the point for you though is that you have to accept that the only reason that you’re going to be confident is because you know who you’re not anymore.   And the difficult part about that is that you’ve gone from this person (gestures) to this person.  And the interesting part about this work and how quickly you move and progress and change is that your whole reality hasn’t caught up to who you are now, have they?

LESSON 1:  No, it hasn’t.

Dr. J:  They know something’s different.  But they still think if you started off down on the floor, maybe you’re kind of halfway up the table.  And so they have these expectations of you –friendships, relationships — that you’re going to be who you were, you’re going to be who I knew, you’re going to be who I like.

LESSON 1:  Who I expect you to be.

Dr. J: Who I expect you to be!  And so they come from that place of wanting you to be who they expect you to be and it almost–it doesn’t almost–  it feels like they really know who you are, doesn’t it?  They know who you should be.  They know you should like that sugar.  They know you should want that cookie.  In the meantime, you are in this brand new space up here in the freakin ethers realizing you have no idea who you are.  And sometimes it’s hard to constantly stay grounded in the idea you have no idea who you are, isn’t it?  So when someone says, “Why don’t you come back down and be this person?”   It’s comforting, isn’t it?  You want to, even though you know it’s not who you are, it’s just nice to know that you can be that.  So you go up, and you come down.  You go up, and you come down.  But every time you come down even for a second, it’s uncomfortable, isn’t it?

LESSON 1:  It is.

Dr. J:  It’s not wrong, it’s not right.  It’s just uncomfortable because that’s just not who you are.  And then when you come down, you really go, “Wow, this doesn’t even taste good anymore.  Wow, I don’t want to do this anymore.    Wow, I don’t even know if I want to be friends with this person anymore. “And it has nothing to do with them.  They’re fine, they’re great!  And it’s a freaky thing, isn’t it?

LESSON 1:  Yes, it is a freaky thing.

Dr:  J:  So let it be a freaky thing.   And be confident in the fact that you have no idea who you are.  But in refection, you know who you’re not anymore.  So it’s just not who I am.  I went out to a wonderful party.  It had just been an incredible, intense couple of weeks, beautiful.  And so I had some really good vodka on some ice.  I just wanted to have a couple sips and just mellow out.  It was a rock-n-roll party so I thought it would be fun.  So the guy filled up the glass and I didn’t drink that much and I was like, I put it down.  There’s nothing wrong with alcohol.  There’s nothing wrong with having a few drinks once a year.  It wasn’t who I was.  I could have forced it down but I didn’t want to get unconscious.  Do you know what I’m saying?

LESSON 1:  I do know what you’re saying.

Dr. J:  So I am sharing this with you.  It is ironic that every time you come in I share personal stories with you.  I think they really help you.

LESSON 1:  Everything you do helps me.

Dr. J:  I help you to realize that you’re not in a struggle, it’s not a problem, and it’s not an issue.  It is the phenomenon.  It is the natural part of the phenomenon.  You’re going to go through this.  And do not become self-punishing over the moments when you try and identify with something that’s known instead of constantly staying in a space of, “I have no freaking clue who I am, but it’s great.  I have no Idea who I am but it’s great.”  And so you’re coming to a place of consciousness where you’re really able to sense, “I’m one with God, I want to be separate.  I’m one with God, I want to be separate.  I’m one with God, I want to be separate. “   Because when we’re one with God, the possibility of who we are is infinite and we have no idea. 

LESSON 1:  Honestly, where I am right now, I always want to be one with God.

Dr. J:  That’s my point.

LESSON 1:  Yet, I’m not realizing I want to be separate.  Yet maybe some of my actions…

Dt. J:  Yes, this is what I’m explaining to you.

LESSON 1:  Ok, I get it now.  Consciously I don’t want to.

Dr. J:  No of course you don’t.  I don’t either.  But I have to be honest with the state of my beingness that I’m still having reflexes that want me to engage in raising my voice, engage in having a little drink,  and I don’t look at those things as being bad anymore.   I look at them as, there’s still something in me resisting that oneness.  I’m still in my way a little bit but I’m conscious of it.  I can actually feel the shifting, you know.  Which is so cool.  And for me, I don’t shift that much away.  So when I can feel it, I’m realizing it’s a habit.  It’s just a habit.  It’s just an old habit of going (gestures).   It’s almost like a habitual lean.  When in reality, we want to lean because we’ve been this way for so long, but in reality, we’ve been this way forever.  We’ve only been this way for a millisecond.  We’ve been one with God eternally.  We created the experience of separateness maybe a millisecond ago, even if it was a million years.  So in essence, the true habit, the one that will always win is this one.  So in the meantime, be kind to yourself.  Be kind to yourself.  Because looking at the way you live your life, looking at the way you eat, the way you drink, you are a totally different person than one I started seeing.  Remember I told you could never go back?  Do you see that now?  You are at 90% candida clear.  You’re at 10% and you’re already vibrating like crazy.  You’re like, “This just doesn’t feel right.   It’s not that I’m afraid; it’s that this just doesn’t feel right.  I don’t like how I feel! “So can you imagine if you were at 50%?

LESSON 1:  NO!

Dr. J:  You would be out of your freakin skin!

LESSON 1:  That’s true, that’s true!

Dr. J:  You would be so insane with imbalance that you’d be like, “Oh God, would you stop eating sugar!  I’m done!” 

So you can’t go back.   So surrender in to going forward which is that you don’t have any idea who you are.  You have no identity.  You have no identity.  So you have to continue to be open to just..

LESSON 1:  It’s kind of nice.  It takes the freakin pressure off, doesn’t it?

Dr. J:  There’s no pressure, just expansion. 

(Silence)  Beautiful.  I’m seeing a deep pattern in you that’s going to come out that was in your physicality.  And it is a pattern of insulin resistance.  So this is so beautiful for you that you are releasing this.  And of course it is never going to happen but I get to tell you and that’s so cool.  You were going to be diabetic.  You were headed down that road. 

LESSON 1:  Wow.

Dr. J:  And that was a sugar addiction energy that was passed on through both family sides.  Whether it shows up as alcohol or not –alcohol is nothing but a sugar addiction.  And so you’re letting go of your addiction to sugar right now.  Realizing, I don’t need it.  I don’t need it to be happy.  I’m happy.  I don’t need it to be different.   I don’t need it, I’m good!   I’m really good.    And I don’t have to justify why I do what I do.  This is who I am.  Why do you eat that way?  Because this is who I am.  Why do you act this way?  It is because this is who I am.  It’s nothing special; it’s just who I am.  That’s it.  So why’d you have a piece of birthday cake if you don’t eat sugar?  Because in that moment it was who I was.   It’s ok, it’s not about micromanaging, it’s about not even managing at all.  Just letting yourself be in that field and letting it direct you on every level.  Which means, if you’re letting it direct you on every level, there is no resistance.  And people who have diabetes or insulin resistance problems, they’re all control freaks.  And so they want to control what’s in or out of their lives, don’t they.  And that leads to them controlling whether or not insulin can get in or out of their cells.  Starting to see the big essence of disease processes now?

LESSON 1:  That’s amazing.

Dr. J:  Diabetes–sugar–control.   We’re not in control, and it’s beautiful.  Once you get past all of the fears and issues, then being out of control is beautiful because it means you’re absolutely in alignment.  When you’re out of control, you’re in alignment or moving towards it.  When you’re in control, you’re holding your own alignment, which really isn’t true.  It’s just what you believe to be true. 

LESSON 1:   So there’s something within me that was able to tell you that down the road that this was going to happen?

Dr. J:  No, just told.  Not in you.  God told me.  That’s where you were going to end up.  But now it’s gone.

LESSON 1:  Thank you.

Dr. J:  You’re welcome, thank God.

LESSON 1:  Thank you, God.

Dr. J:  Yeah, it’s over.  You’re never going to have that problem now.  It’s done.

LESSON 1:    Is there anything within me about past lives?  We’ve never gone there and I’m very interested to know.

Dr. J:  The one thing that you bring up when I ask you about past lives is… and I tell people all kinds of different past lives is doesn’t matter to me, I’m very open to whatever it is… you’re done with this idea of being a princess.  You were a princess and you felt bad about your wealth, you felt bad about being pampered.  You felt bad about all that.  You were always running out into the village to help the little children and sneak them food and try and give them things.  You were always working from this place of feeling bad about the fact that you had and that other people didn’t.

LESSON 1:  I feel that way now.

Dr. J:  Yeah, and so God’s just telling me to tell you this.  You have what you have and from a place of balance, help others.  But don’t run away from the gift of your wealth.  Don’t run away from it.

LESSON 1:  I thought I might have been very poor, because every time I see poverty in places where I’ve traveled like Mexico, I want to help the children there.  I’m so drawn to it.

Dr.  J:  Right, that was this.  God is saying don’t run from your wealth.  Just help from a place of balance.  You’re not going to change the world with money.  You’re going to change the world with love.  So just give from a place that’s balanced.  Don’t ever forget that what you give that has nothing do with money is worth 20 times more than money is ever worth.   You give your love, you give your heart, you let God come through you and touch people.  You gave your life, you gave your agenda up when you came and saw me.  You gave up your control of your life to let your life be what God wants.  You gave up ownership of your life.  There’s no price on that. 

LESSON 1:  I would assume as this part of my plan to meet you at this point that we would have met before.  I’m interested to know more.

Dr. J:  All of you who have come to see me have known me before.  All of you.  That’s how you found me.  You found your way back. 

LESSON 1:  But how do I find out how I knew you before?

Dr. J:  The only connection you need to know is that I was always a teacher.  I was always placed in your life in weird places.  Like the medieval life where you were a princess, I was a homeless man that you went to help.   You went to help me, and ended up being helped.  You wanted to help me, you wanted to give and give and give to me and I amazed you because I was absolutely happy in my space of homelessness.    I was like, “No.  Why would I want that?”  You were like, “You should have better clothes…”  And I told you I was fine, that I had everything I needed.   Then I told you I was there to help you.   And you looked at me and said, “How can you help me?  I’m here to help you.”  You looked at people in poverty as people you needed to help.  And I was one of those people in your life who helped you to realize that he has everything he needs.  He has God. 

LESSON 1:  So have you always been bringing me to God?

Dr. J:  Always.  Just in different ways and in different characters.

LESSON 1:  Am I closer to God now than I’ve ever been?

Dr. J:  Ever!  You’re as close to God now—you’re the closest you’ve ever been to God since you created separation.  You’ve never been closer and you’re just merging into oneness.  Yes, so it’s inevitable.  The oneness is inevitable.  There’s nothing you can do to screw it up.  It’s impossible.   You can’t screw up.  Why?  Because you have no identity.  Because you have no identity you have nothing to save.  Because you have nothing to save you have no reason not to be one.  You’re finally understanding what I told everyone in Lesson 2.  You’re not eating what you’re eating for you.  You’re doing what you’re doing for God.  You’re being healthy for God.  You’re being a channel for God.   You’re doing it for God. You’re not trying to save you, there’s no you to save.  There’s the belief in ourselves that we save but there’s no real you to save. 

Beautiful.  You need some strong doses of B vitamins now.  We’re going to give you some G along with that.  You’re going to notice that the world around you doesn’t move you anymore.  You will be moved by the intuition within you.  Poverty won’t make you feel bad.  You may be moved to help a child but poverty itself won’t make you feel so bad, it won’t affect you anymore.  But that one child you’re supposed to affect will.  It won’t be a constant slam of everything going on around you.  You will simply be moved by specific situations that will affect you but you won’t be reacting to everything around you wondering how you are going to do it all.

LESSON 1:  One other question, as I’m listening to my tape from last time, you talk about how God not only placed his trust within me to give me two beautiful children but to teach others as well.  How do we explain the trust then that God gave to my dad for his two children that he, he didn’t act appropriately with?  How do we explain that piece?

Dr. J:  He did act appropriately.  He was exactly…

LESSON 1:   I’m judging him, ok.

Dr. J:  Yes!  He was exactly the father you needed to have in your life to move you into this experience with God. 

LESSON 1:   And the same for, say, serial killers and others?

Dr. J:  We cannot begin to judge what we do not understand.  Because once we judge it never stops.  Instead of judging a serial killer for killing people, we have to have compassion for that person and just be so compassionate because they had something in them that made them do something horrible.  How terrible to live as that person. 

LESSON 1:  I guess a part of me is afraid that I would maybe do something off the deep end.  That love that you speak about, I struggle with someone being able to love me so unconditionally.

Dr. J:  Right, and the key is that you accept the fact that no matter what you would ever do, it is not beyond forgiving yourself.  That’s where the power for that is taken away.  And no matter what you do, you could forgive yourself.   Once you accept that no matter what you do you could forgive yourself, like me, in my space of peace raising my voice at my wife, and by forgiving myself, I totally took the power away from that happening again.  I confronted it, apologized, and forgave myself.  Now there is no charge anymore.  So no matter what you could do and it’s not like it’s killing anybody, but in my reality raising my voice and yelling at somebody is like being a serial killer for most other people.  I am so not in that place that when I did it, I had to acknowledge it.  It was something I’m not.  I’m not mad at myself for it; it’s something I’m not.    I have to forgive myself.  So when you think of any terrible thing you can do, when your mind plays that trick on you, just go, whatever it is, I’m going to forgive myself.    Whatever it is, God’s going to forgive it.  Remember when I told you, we’ve all been the rapist, we’ve all been the murderer, we’ve all been the victim, we’ve all been the man, we’ve all been the woman?  If you’re at this part in your spiritual journey you’ve been someone who’s gone off the deep end.

LESSON 1:  No, you haven’t told me this.  In a past life I’ve done all these things?

Dr. J:  Of course!  We all have!  We don’t get to replace the spiritual consciousness unless we’ve gone through those experiences.  You know what I’m saying?

LESSON 1:  I know I don’t know what the future holds, but if I’m closer to God than I’ve ever been,  that in my next life I’d only continue…

Dr. J:  Always, always!

LESSON 1:  So the worst is behind me?

Dr: J:  Always!

LESSON 1:  (laughing) Ok!

Dr; J:  That’s what I’m telling you; you can’t go backward.  If you were just role-playing and picked up a knife and thought about going into your kid’s bedroom, you’d just bust out laughing before you got to the drawer.  You know what I’m saying?  In your craziest moment you would still laugh at the insanity of that.  It’s impossible.  Just like going back to 50% yeast is impossible. 

LESSON 1:  Got it.  You’re awesome, thank you.

Dr. J:  It can’t happen.  Once consciousness expands, it can’t collapse.  It only can expand.  You can’t go backwards, it’s impossible.  We would go totally against the natural law of life.  It has to go this way.  It is God’s will that it goes this way.  We want it to go this way, and in every attempt to make it go back and re-do something again, who is still pushing it forward?

LESSON 1:  God

Dr. J:  So we feel the resistance of it and we create huge amounts of suffering over it but it’s over.  So you can either hold on to that resistance, which, if you could record this visit on a cd for me, it’d be great.  A lot of great information’s coming through, and I’d love to have it.   So if you burn it, burn a disk for me, ok.

LESSON 1:  Sure, I’d be happy to.

Dr. J:  When you resist it, it’s still moving forward.  Because you haven’t let it go, you create karma.  Jesus was the highest form of physical example of God in human form.  And he brought us the concept of forgiveness.  The biggest gift he gave us was forgiveness because forgiveness is the end of karma.  Forgiveness allows you to continue to move forward even though you know you’re not doing everything Godly without creating karma.  Get it?  So, that’s what you’re finally embracing right now- forgiveness.  Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do.  They don’t know what they’re doing.  How can we be mad at them?  Let’s see… we had the choice to save a thief, or save the most amazing God in human form we’ve ever had.  And we saved… the thief.  In other words, we saved the one most like who?  Like us.  We saved ourselves.  And Jesus did what was most in alignment with who?  God.  Hence, the dichotomy.  So for me, I live my life doing what’s in the highest interest of God.  And when I’m presented with a part of me that’s representative or symbolic of the thief, I don’t save him.  I love him, I forgive him, but I let him die.  And I keep what is most like God in me.  I don’t need to make that mistake again.  I know what I do.  I know what I do, I’m conscious.  Got it?

LESSON 1:  Got it.  Thank you!

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