Dr. J:  So do you have anything coming in today or do you want to open it up?

LESSON 2:  Let’s open it up.

Dr. J:  Sweet.   I’m hearing words come out of you that I’m very happy to hear.  The first words that I hear coming out of the deepest space in you is, “I’m beautiful”. 

LESSON 2:  It’s true.

Dr. J:  It brings my heart such joy to hear those words come from you and for you to validate them without hesitation.  It’s like you’re saying, “I really believe that.  That’s really the truth!”  And it is.  So, congratulations because from that everything just heals.  Everything just heals.  Congratulations on that.  That’s a beautiful, beautiful victory.  Remember what you do for you, even though you do it for you, you do it for all women who are in a place of low self-esteem, all women who weren’t feeling great about themselves.  Once someone comes from the space you’ve come from, and opens up that new space, then it becomes achievable for everybody.  So, whether you are doing it in that intention or not, your healing is the world’s healing.  Just by doing the work you’ve opened it up for others to achieve.  You’ve made it easier for those to come.  So good on so many levels. 

LESSON 2:  Silence

Dr. J: Stomach.  It’s Earth.  Your big thing is Earth.  So we work on pancreas, stomach, spleen a lot.  So now we’re going to work on stomach. 

 This is a great one.  Ok.  This is about perception and we’ve worked a lot with perception talking about how you perceive things.  This is the deal breaker.  This one really cuts some final strings.  This is all about the perception of right and wrong.  What is right and what is wrong.  And you are always trying to do the right thing.   You always want to do the right thing, always want to do the right thing.  The reality of it is, what you see as the right thing is limited to what you know is the right thing.  And what somebody else does that you perceive as being right or wrong –or how they feel about you doing the right or wrong thing is based in what we perceive as the right or wrong thing.  Or in that case, what they perceive as the right or wrong thing.    

The craziness about this is you have to come to finally accept is that right or wrong is a total subjective, perceptive experience.  What I think is right or wrong and what you think is right or wrong–well at this point in the game would pretty much be very similar because you have come to a higher level of spiritual consciousness– which is we don’t look at things that much in terms of right or wrong and you’re not going to do it as much either.  It’s what’s in the highest good.  That is intuitive.  You are releasing the whole of a perception and giving the power to the intuitive.  The intuitive just says, “What’s in the highest good?  This is.”  It doesn’t get into judgment.    This is the whole pathway.

 And by all means, you are certainly not obligated to do this again but if you find pleasure or purpose in this…(laughter)

This acceptance of higher consciousness not only helps you transcend your perception, but it also helps you transcend your perception of God.  Because the way that most of us learn about God is based upon what’s right or what’s wrong.  And we make God this emotional being, don’t we?  God does not have any emotions.  God has a space of being.  Peace, love, compassion, forgiveness and acceptance.  God is the energy that those things come from and vice-versa.  This takes you out of that place of seeing God as an emotional being in your life.  Saying, “Is God punishing me for something?  Did I do something wrong?  Is that why that happened?  Did I do something right?  Is that why that happened?”  Instead it lets you simply see your life as nothing but a series of events that were in the highest good of the evolution of your soul.  No emotions.  Why did it happen?  It was in the highest good.  Do we need to understand why everything completely is in the highest good?  Will we ever?  No.  That’s the whole beauty of  I don’t know.  Which is the starting point to me.  When you can begin to say,” I don’t know” you can really become conscious.   But, “I don’t know”.    We don’t know so for that reason we can assume it is in the highest good and we know that that highest good order is everywhere because of us.  And you know it’s in you  because I was able to walk in here and hear out of you what?

LESSON 2:  I’m beautiful.

Dr. J:  You’re beautiful.  You are beautiful because of that highest order.  You are not beautiful because of anything you did or didn’t do right or wrong.  You’re beautiful because of the preponderance and the power of that highest order in this creation, right?  It’s not because of me that you’re beautiful.  It isn’t because of you that you’re beautiful.  It’s because of God that you’re beautiful.  And that beauty, when seen through the eye of God, is undeniable.  That’s what allows me, and you more and more now, to look at everybody with that eye and go, “God, they’re so beautiful!”  And they look at themselves and they don’t see it because they’re blind . 

LESSON 2:  Right

Dr. J:  And as they awaken they see.  It’s like when you came to see me you were blind to how beautiful you were.  All you saw were your “rights” and your “wrongs”. 

LESSON 2:  More “wrongs”, too.

Dr. J:  Of course!  Because the feelings that we experience that cause trauma are when good or bad things happen for the most part?

LESSON 2:  Bad.

Dr. J:  Bad.  And that’s our old nervous system again.  When something bad happens, we want to remember it because it felt bad.  And so because it felt bad, we don’t want it to happen again.  So we want to remember it.

LESSON 2:  So then we hold on to it.

Dr. J: We hold on to it.  It’s like a little pylon.  So it’s like we’re driving down the road and we see that pylon coming up and we say, “I want to avoid that”.  But in essence, the only reason the pylon was set up was because we were in judgment.  And that stops us from living the life that God really wants us to have which is linear because we’re always going back and forth avoiding all these pylons.  Ultimately, the more lives we live and the longer we’re around, we come to an inertia point where our life becomes full of pylons.  So we have turned and come home a long time ago.  The place where we turn and start to come home is where everything in our life is a pylon.  Where we can’t even live without feeling like everything is wrong.  We come to such judgment with life that it is all wrong.  That’s when our space of consciousness goes, “I can’t go this way any longer.” That’s where our own finite knowledge became totally limited.  We turn around, and we come back the other way and go, “Ok, it can’t all be bad.”  Why is it bad?  Because you feel that it is bad.  Oh.  Feelings.  We use feelings like a breadcrumb trail to find our way back.  But feelings only take us so far, don’t they.  Then we have to trust what we don’t understand and what we don’t know.  That’s when we go into the intuitive space.  Make sense? 

In the intuitive space we don’t have to understand.  We just want to become  enlightened and free.  To be beautiful.  To be free.  To be what God made us to be.  And to do that we must finally and completely take the final lesson of learning how to leave judgment behind.  Which is, there is no right or wrong.  Now this is what many masters have spoken of and what I feel is my greatest calling is to bring people in to.  Jesus gave us the beautiful teaching of forgiveness.  He was the one that brought that message.  Without that message, we would never become intuitive.  Because we would never have been able to let go of what we didn’t understand to become intuitive.  Now, I am, (and I say I am because I am one of the people God has placed in this place to do this) saying if you don’t see anything as being right or wrong, you transcend the need to forgive.  Because if it doesn’t register as a wrong thing, you don’t have to forgive it. 

LESSON 2:  It just is.

 Dr. J:  It just is!  And then reality becomes seamless.  It becomes one amazing moment after another.  One beautiful moment after another.  Because you’re not distracted by any pylons anymore.  It just is.  And it’s amazing.  And it’s beautiful .  And as I see life though my intuitive eyes, through the eyes of God, I see it all as just so beautiful  and perfect, and beautiful and perfect.  It’s breathtaking.   Its like, “Oh my God it’s so beautiful.  It’s so perfect.”  And I see God working in all of these infinite directions and I’m just so amazed at the Creator.  And so flattered that I am a part of it.  That what I am doing to contribute to it is infinitesimal and really a fleck.

 But what I was doing to distract myself from it, what I was doing  to get in my own way, it’s almost like I was standing in front of myself at a movie.  When I first started my spiritual work I was standing right in front of myself and I would move to the right, that guy would move to the right.  I moved to the left, and that guy would move to the left.  It’s like, “I can’t see what’s going on”.  And then  as I realized as I got him smaller and smaller and out of my way I started to really see what was going on.  And I realized, “Wow!  I was distracting myself.  I was distracting myself from the most amazing reality that could possibly ever be created that’s beyond my comprehension. “

 And in that space, God becomes a full-time reality.   There isn’t, “Where is God?”  To me it’s “Where isn’t God?”   The only place there isn’t God is where you’re blocking that presence.  And you’re blocking that presence because in a moment of your life, you judged life as being right or wrong.  Both are just as powerful and distracting. 

 LESSON 2:  I do that to myself still.

Dr. J: I know you do!   That’s what this visit is all about!  Isn’t that beautiful?  This is freedom!  I’m giving you the keys to the kingdom!  Because now that you know, what’s at stake when you do it?  You can start to let it go and say, “I don’t want to do it anymore!”  Like I told you when you ate sugar, remember?  Once you knew what it was doing to you, you quit! 

LESSON 2:  I see this really coming out in situations like at work when people are venting and being negative and talking about other people.  Before I didn’t have an awareness that I would be participating and was a part of it.  I really truly didn’t.  And now I don’t want to live in judgment.  I want to take the higher road.  I don’t want to do these things.  And I’ll say to myself, “I’m not going to do it” and then it’s like what you described in my last visit, “I want to be one with God, I want to be separate.” I’ll feel and see that separateness come into play and then I get mad at myself.  As you explained it’s part of the phenomenon, yet, I need to get past that.

Dr. J:  You are.  You are.  You’re past it because of what I heard come from you when I walked in.  At the core of everything is you being what?

LESSON 2:  Beautiful.

 Dr. J:  At the core of everybody no matter what they’re doing, they are what?  Beautiful.  They’re beautiful in their expression of negativity.  They’re exactly where they are supposed to be.

LESSON 2:  I’m not judging them for where they are but I’m mad at myself for going there too.

Dr. J:  I’m telling you that’s because for all of your lifetimes up until this one, your nervous system in body after body after body has been in absolute control of everything you did!  It’s the most facilitated thing to do.  OK I’ll give you an example.  Let’s just say you pull out of your driveway.  You turn right, you go a block, you turn left, you go a block, you turn right, you turn left, you turn right and you’re at work.  And every day for 50 years you take all these same turns to get to work.  You’re not even thinking about the drive to work anymore, right?

LESSON 2:  Right.  I’m on auto.

Dr. J:  Yes, you’re on auto.  That’s what you’re breaking down here with me.  That’s why it’s so difficult.  You have millions and millions of experiences where you reacted this way.  All of a sudden I’m waking you up and changing you program and you’re going, “Oh my God!  What’s going on?”  But you still want to make the left, the right, the left, the right.  But now all of a sudden you’re making a left and a right and you’re going, “I don’t want to go right. OK, I’ll go left.  But I still want to make that turn.”

It’s a habit.  You don’t condemn yourself over a habit.  I tell people, “Don’t quit habits.”   Realize they no longer play a proper role in teaching you anymore.  You are still learning from this process you are going through.  You don’t want to learn from it; you want to be done with it.  You must learn from this process.  You must embrace it.

LESSON 2:  Ok I will.

Dr. J:  Until you don’t have it anymore, you must use the gift that Jesus gave us.  Forgiveness.  Anger is no solution to any opinion or judgment.  It is forgiveness.  I forgive myself.  I forgive myself.  I forgive myself.  Forgiveness brings you right back into the place of connection.   That’s the beauty of that gift. Ok?

LESSON 2:  Ok.

Dr. J:  And you’ll forgive yourself, and forgive yourself, and forgive yourself and then after a while, you won’t have to forgive yourself so much anymore.  Because you’ll be in a space of non-judgment.  But you use that gift.  I still use that gift.  Because remember, if I do the left, the right, the left , even in my mind, if I don’t say a cruel word to anyone, but in my mind I’ve said — Simple example:  You have kids, you know how it goes.   My son wanted a certain kind of pull-ups.  He’s self conscious about this bed wetting thing.  I’m trying to help him. I’m trying to comfort him saying, “It’s ok you know.  It’s going to stop.  Don’t worry about it.”  He’s very uncomfortable about the whole thing.  So his mother buys him a different set of pull-ups.  No big deal.  They’re not the same kind.  And so it’s bringing up this whole uncomfortable feeling he has.  So I told him, “If mom doesn’t get them tomorrow, I’ll go after work and get them to make sure you have the kind you like.”  I remember, I have compassion.  I remember that part of my life.  His mother didn’t get to the store.  So I go through my day.  I work all day, I go to their Christmas concert at night, watch him do his Christmas carols, all good.  Get home, mom didn’t get the pull-ups.  Well, you know, it is what it is.  Mom’s a stay-at-home-mom.  So I’m driving to get gas and having to go to the grocery store to get pull-ups at 8:00 at night.  And I’m watching my mind, wanting to go home and to say, “What the heck?  You couldn’t make it to the store?”  And she said to him, “Why can’t you just sleep in them one more night?”  And I said, “It’s not about him sleeping in them one more night. “ We made a deal, you know?  The point is, I went there in my mind.  Did I go home and say it to my wife?  No, I didn’t.  I went past that.  I realized it’s a waste of time, it’s going to cause conflict, and there’s no point in it.  It’s the way that it is.  You were meant to go on this ride and to experience this feeling of frustration and aggravation and you were meant to not act on it for a change.  Not trying to be right, and just to let it go.  I did, but I had to forgive myself. 

LESSON 2:  What comes to my mind is that your son was able to see how much you would do for him.

Dr. J:  Exactly. 

LESSON 2:  That was the situation that was meant to happen.

Dr. J:  Thank you.  You’re exactly right but all I was thinking about was the right, the left, the right, the left .  But ironically I came home and he was in his jammies upstairs in his bed with his mom and I said, “Here you go, I got you the pull-ups you wanted.   Does your Father always do what he says he is going to do?”  And I used those words because I wanted him to hear that word.  And he said, “Yep, you always do. “  I was planting a seed, like, “God always does what he’s supposed to do.”  God always does it.  Someday you’ll only see me as your dad.  And that’s all I want to be is your dad.  But your Father is always going to be your Father.  

 So the point is, I had to forgive myself for even going to that place.  Even though it was an internal conversation, I had to forgive myself.   Because I was judging.   So the act of it is irrelevant, ok?    So you have to be ok with using forgiveness.  Because we could be this lifetime or 4 lifetimes off from never having to use forgiveness again.  It’s a great tool I’d love to have in my bag.  Because I never know–I’m all, “It’s good; it’s great.  It’s good; it’s great.  It’s good; it’s great!”  I love to be in that space 95, 97, 98% of the time.  I love having that forgiveness in my pocket so that if something I have to learn comes up, I can learn it, forgive it, and get right back in that space again.  So forgiveness is not a failure.  The ability to forgive and let yourself be forgiven is a wonderful sign of humility and it shows we are all still students and we are all still students of the ultimate teacher.  The Master of all Masters still has lessons for us to learn.  And so, there will need to be forgiveness forever.  I like to use it as little as possible.  I like to be in a space of unconditional love and acceptance as much as I possibly can.   I hope there’s a day when I don’t use forgiveness.  But I sure love to have it when I need it.     

LESSON 2:  Something else is coming up and we talked about this last time.  The fact that my reality hasn’t really caught up to me yet.  Especially with my husband.  Another time you also said that I will always be sharing my life with people who are in different spaces but how it’s coming in play now is that I think he is feeling insecure with some of the changes that he is seeing.   I think part of him is afraid in some respects.  Basically, I married an atheist – my own doing because talking about God scared me to death because when my father would have a manic episode he would speak of God in a very scary way.  So  I married someone who didn’t talk about God at all.

Dr. J:  Ah, you  polarized.   Everybody is going to come from a different place.  What you have to understand  the teachings that come  through me that I teach other people–we are at the point.  We exclude no one.  We don’t care if they’re an atheist, we don’t care if they’re born again,  we don’t care because we’re not seeing anyone as being separate.  Atheist is a judgment–it’s a category.  It’s a way you’re describing him. Ok?

LESSON 2:  ok

Dr. J:   Forget it.  Your husband for a long time took security in your insecurity.  As much as he wanted you to get better, he didn’t.  Because he was in control.  Now he is seeing this inner strength in you and it is not going away.  You haven’t waned.  You are escalating.  You are getting stronger and deeper and stronger and deeper.  And he’s realizing, this isn’t about the reason you first came to see me–a diet.   You are being taught.  You have found someone to help mentor your spiritual path.  And you’re enjoying it and you’re learning, and you’re growing, and you’re applying and you’re learning more.  Your thirst for it hasn’t gone away.  Nor will it ever because the great Teacher of all Teachers which you’re meeting today is going to teach you something all the time.  Life is a class.  My life is my bible.  My experiences are my lessons and my chapters.  That’s what it’s all about.  So the reality is you are a remedy in your house right now.  You are causing vibrations to change with your level of peace, love, acceptance and forgiveness.  Got it?  So he’s vibrating.  You, in the space you are existing in, are proving God!  You’re not proving it by being a bible thumper or someone who’s trying to shove a religion…

LESSON 2:  No.  I’m not really even talking about it! 

Dr. J:  He sees you.  You’re peaceful.  You’re smiling.  You’re not as needy anymore.  You don’t need him.  All of a sudden, he’s now shifting.  Because you don’t need him as your support system anymore.  Now he’s moving into a healing mode.  But he’s defensive, he’s aggressive. 

 It’s impossible to not believe in God.  The evidence is everywhere.  He sees you living your truth.  He will vibrate towards you.  But like everyone else he will resist.  He will want to be separate- then one.  Separate- then one. 

LESSON 2:  Hypothetically, if someone comes in the door here who does not talk about God, do you just respect that fact and then you don’t really talk of God with them?

Dr. J:  No.  I’m exactly who I am.

LESSON 2:  But, if your intuition tells you that they’re not in a space to go there with, do you not go there?

Dr. J: I’m not in control of that.  God makes me who I am with every patient.  I’ll be exactly who I’m supposed to be with them.  I’ll be exactly who God wants me to be.  God will choose my words.  God will choose what I know, what I don’t know.  I will always respect someone who doesn’t believe in God but I will never suppress my love and belief in God because someone else doesn’t.

LESSON 2:  I am struggling with how much I can really be myself at home.  I don’t want to…I just want to get along.  I just want to keep it nice.  If I keep it nice, I’m not talking about God with my husband  because that might be striking a chord with him and I don’t want to do that.  I just want things to be peaceful between us.  But then I feel I’m not living my truth because if a thought comes to me, then I want to say it.

Dr. J:  Then say it.  You know, there’s a difference.  I’ve never had a problem with this, you know.   I’ve been around people who have been very big into about talking about religion.  There’s a difference between talking of God when God inspires you to, and talking about God because you’re trying to convince yourself.  There’s a difference of talking about God in a moment of wonder.  In a moment of such thanks and gratitude.  There’s a difference of talking about God out of habit and regurgitation.  When you talk of God in a moment of wonder, in a moment of gratefulness, thankfulness,  awakening—it’s inspirational.  When you talk about God in a routine way, in a ritualistic way, it shuts people off.  Because this has been their whole experience.  So trust your expression of God, would you?  You are an expression of God.  So trust your expression of God.  Trust how you express God.  Trust when it comes up.  Trust it.  Trust it.  You’re not telling anyone they’ve got to be saved…remember, we’re not coming from that space, that’s what so beautiful about this… we’re not saying that Jesus is the way,  you do it this way or there’s no way.  We’re not in that space.  We’re just saying that we’re thankful for God for creation.  For everything that we are.  For the beauty of our nature, for our children, we’re giving thanks and praise to the force of creation.  That’s what God is.  God is the force of all things.  It’s not a person.  We’re not humanizing him.  We’re just saying, “What is God?”  God is everything that makes everything as it is.  An unconditional force of love, acceptance, forgiveness that allows everything to be what it is.  Is it a person?  It is so far beyond being a person.  It’s beyond my comprehension.  That’s what I mean when I say God.  That’s what it means to me.  When you say it like that, most people are like, “Yeah, that’s kinda what I think it is.  So you’re not telling me it’s this religion, or that religion?”   They’ll always go back to religion.  Because religion has defined God.   Badly.  Because it’s defined God to serve itself.  I define God so that I may serve.  I make God in some way tangible.  Because I see it everywhere.  I see the order of God.  I see evidence of God.  So I claim there to be a God based on the preponderance of evidence and order I see in the world.  And I call that God because I wish to have something that I know when I serve it, I am serving that order.  I am serving that truth.  I am serving that highest good.  That’s it,  understand? 

Most people find that absolutely comforting.  You know what that does for most people?  It gives them a chance to believe in God again.  Because they realize the way I believe in it, it gives them a chance to believe in it the way they always wanted to.  Our belief in God had been taken from us in my opinion.  More so than given to us from religion.   We’ve been stripped of our pure belief in God.  And it’s been replaced with sin, guilt, and control.  I think that has been a big, big part of religion.  If you look at the oldest forms of government, they’re religion.  Religion is right there.  As government formed, religion formed and they’ve been peas in a pod ever since.  No denying it.  So that’s what’s happening when you’re talking with your husband.  You are vibrating him. 

You’re chronically underestimating the power that God has to work through you.  You’re still looking at your husband who’s an atheist, someone who can’t change…

LESSON 2:  And I didn’t mean to sound negative by calling him an atheist…

Dr. J:  You’re not being negative at all.  I don’t think of atheists as being negative.  I think they are the best people to shift because they don’t believe in anything!  They’re the easiest ones to show it to!  They’re looking for proof.  They’re not faith-based.  They’re just looking for common logic that shows them it exists.  They’re the best as far as I’m concerned.  Because I used to be in that space.  I told God, “I’m not going to believe you exist at all.  You show me you exist.  I’m forgetting religion.  As far as I’m concerned, you don’t exist.  Now show me you exist.”  And God went, “Perfect.  I’ll show you.  And when I show you, you’ll be able to tell everybody else how I did it.” 

And so he showed me with my life.  He’s showing you with your life.  Got it?

LESSON 2:  Got it.

Dr. J:  So, perception of right and wrong.  Judgment.  You have to let it go.  Why?  Because it takes you out of your intuitive.  All there is to do in life is what’s in the highest good.  There is no right or wrong thing to do.  It’s what’s in the highest good.  Don’t even take it into right or wrong.  Because underneath right and wrong, above it is what?

LESSON 2:  Judgment.

Dr. J: Judgment.  So I like to take right or wrong and move it into what’s in the highest good.  People will say, “Do you think I should do this?”  And I’ll say, “Well, what’s in the highest good?  If you’re asking me what I think is in the highest good I will tell you what I think would be in the highest good.  I’ll give you that opinion.  Whether that’s going to fit what you think is right or wrong to happen, that’s not my decision.” 

Because I don’t look at things in terms of what is right or wrong.  And as much as I possibly can, I’ve stopped that.  So as long as you’re going to look at things in terms of right or wrong, what’s in the highest good may not always make you feel good.  But it’s what is in the highest good.  We have to make that stand in what is in the highest good as often as we possibly can become conscious of it.  And the times we can’t, we have to forgive ourselves.  Believe me, as I’ve released all of my past lives, I’ve had to forgive myself for old, old stuff that I did because I thought it was the right thing to do.  And it wasn’t.  This is a life like way way back when.  One of these days you’ll hear about it.  Way, way back when.  You’ll hear about it one of these days.  So it’s one of the reasons I’m doing what I’m doing now. 

So that’s what we’re disconnecting you from.  So what this calls for you to do in your own personal life is for you to get in the tank more, do more meditation, do more deep breathing yoga, slow down your nervous system’s response.  So you have that moment of clarity before you jump from one to the other.  Do you follow what I’m saying?  Before you make the left, the right, the left, you have that one moment that goes, “I’m going to walk.   I’m not even going to drive.”  Ironic isn’t it?  So you walk.  And as you walk, you have a chance to look and make decisions at a slower pace.  It’s all about slowing down, slowing down.  Rush to judgment.

LESSON 2:  Silence

Dr. J:  Very good.  Nice.  This was just a great one today.  Can you imagine not recording them now?

LESSON 2:   No.

Dr. J:  So much comes through.  By having these typed I get to enjoy them then.  I enjoy them with you but with so much coming through me all day long, it would be nice to read the book.  I mean I know them because I’m teaching them all day long but it would be nice to reflect. 

There it goes.